2.4.14 – Avoid the Red Dragon and other sketches

2.4.14 Avoid the Red Dragon
2.4.14 Avoid the Red Dragon, Mixed media on paper, 12″ x 9″

“Avoiding the Red Dragon” and other sketches I did today…  reflect a yearning and discomfort that seemed real last night.  Emotion is not reality — not easy to remember.

2.4.14 Right Angles by Jane Dever, pencil sketch on paper, 12" x 9"
2.4.14 Right Angles by Jane Dever, pencil sketch on paper, 12″ x 9″

Fear is foolish, knowing that I am loved, and a sign that I am off track, trust-wise. Wisdom dictates that if my house welcomes God, he will bring peace to it.  Fear is a terrible thing and it skews my thinking.

A prank phone call riled me before bed last night.  I cried a lot and then prayed for safety and fell asleep.  The man who called was not kind, and it triggered a PTSD sort of reaction in me – paranoia even.  I’ve had time to reflect, even after another tearful breakdown tonight, wondering how to move past the fear.  He was the Red Dragon, for all intensive purposes.  I can run into the woods to the safe place God has in store for me; it just takes me a while to get it!

Bright Eyes by Jane Dever; pencil on paper, 12" x 9"
Bright Eyes by Jane Dever; pencil on paper, 12″ x 9″

In the end, it is as simple as this: mankind can kill my body but not my soul. I actually hid behind the snow today and stayed home.  I will leave the house tomorrow.

Dr.Zhivago

Making God first is my goal.  I know that money, a husband and a home of my own can be a curse if they aren’t of God. I pray for them, of course, and being nearer to my children — at least being able to visit them on a regular basis.

I will write again for the next painting… photos of my kiddos will be part of that post.

I have a lot of remembering (remembering God) to do.  Human concerns must take a back burner, for greater rewards.

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